More than just a girl.

Prompt: Who are you?

When I heard this question I started to think. I know the basic things I am. I am a loving wife, daughter, sister, and soon to be aunt. Although that is not all of me. I am so much more, more than I can list. I want to be so much more. I am a very strong and happy person. I trust and love too much. I hate lying and that can push me away from anybody. I am very intelligent. I am too messy and shop too much. I love my t.v. and sleep too much. I have not always been this way though.

I have changed so much in the passed year:

• I had a hard time understanding what working for your grades really meant. I have never had to work for any grades. Now, I work for all of them. I was in honors from third grade to twelfth grade but I was never challenged. College has challenged me. I have learned what effort you are supposed to put into school and school should not be easy. It should always challenge you and make you grow as a person.
• I have had to lose the one I love for seven months. I have learned how to be strong and live my life even though I am hurting inside. I have to stay strong for my husband. If I break down, he will also. Just because I am hurting does not mean the world will stop. I still have to work and go to school. I do not tell many people where he is, that will make them sympathetic told me and him. I do not need that. What he does should not make people sympathetic, it should make them feel thankful. He is out there so they do not have to be.
• I have learned what it is to be a wife. How you should not sweat the little things. That life will not always be smooth. The most important thing is that I cannot always be right and I should give in sometimes. Relationships are give and take that was the hardest to learn.
• I have learned to understand my real father some and allow him in my life more. I do not understand why he did the things he did in the past but I know I should forgive him. Forgiveness is not easy but everybody should have forgiveness. He will never replace my stepfather, who stepped up and has been there for me every step of the way, but he should be allowed to know my family and me.

I am very close to my family. I love my family and I would say they are my rock. I love just getting together with them and talking for hours. Right now I am living with my mom, dad, little sister, and my big brother. It is just so awesome to have them all here. If I need anything then somebody is here to help. It can range from emotional to my oil changed. I am not a very independent person and I depend on my family. I know I will have to be more independent in February when I buy my house but i am dreading it. In January, we will have an addition to the family. A little baby girl named Ariel. I love kids and cannot wait for her to get here. Unfortunately I will only be there for one month while she is there.

As you can see from the above paragraph, I love kids. I am going to school to teach middle school. I think teachers help mold the future. Teachers have the most influential job available. They can help change the future. I have thought of jobs that make more money but I always come back to teaching. I want to help children and make sure they know somebody is always there for them. Money is not everything to me. I would rather help somebody then be rich. Being rich would be nice but it is not the most important thing in the world. Children are the future and helping them is my passion. Although I love children, ironically I only want one for myself.

If I were to use one sentence to describe me, I would say: I am vulnerable yet strong. On the outside I am very strong but on the inside I am an emotional wreck. I keep everything all bottled up inside. My close friends know my emotions. I do not have many close friends but the ones I have are true friends. They can tell if I am keeping something inside that I need to let out. They are the therapy that helps me everyday.

I have flaws and I assets. I am not and will never be perfect. I try to discover my flaws and work on them everyday. I look forward to the future and all it brings.

How far would you go for love?

Prompt: The Alligator River Story

This story has many twist and turns, but it comes down to love. How far would one go to be with the one they love? Abigail did what she thought to be the only way to be with Gregory. Gregory did nothing. So should Abigail get more respect because she tried to be with Gregory? Or should she get less because she did the unthinkable by cheating on him? Should Gregory get less respect because he did nothing?

I gave Abigail a five. I'm sorry but under no circumstances should you cheat on somebody. The bridge would only be washed out a couple weeks. They could live without each other that long. What was Abigail so afraid of that she had to see Gregory that day? Maybe she thought he would cheat on her. Why couldn't she just take a sick day at work and go see him? That would have solved this whole thing. Abigail had options; she just did not want to take them. When Abigail laughed at Gregory because Slug beat him up was terrible. I thought she loved him. She loved him so much she would sleep with somebody else and get him beat up. I would never want her love.

Sinbad gets a four. I thought for a while if Sinbad should get the five and Abigail the four but I decided against it. Sinbad is a horrible person for taking advantage of a situation of torn lovers. And to want sex of all things just makes him more horrible. Yes Sinbad is nasty and disgusting but Abigail is worse because she said yes to the offer.

A three goes to Slug. Violence is never the answer. You can look at Slug and say he was admiral because he took up for Abigail but she got herself in that situation. Slug had no right beating up somebody for breaking it off with a girl that cheated on him.

I gave Gregory a two. Although Gregory did nothing wrong in this story, he could have tried harder to see Abigail. It makes me think maybe Abigail loved him more then he loved her. Maybe he could have found a way over to her without Sinbad getting involved.

Last Ivan gets a one. He was in the wrong place at the wrong time. He did not want to get involved. He was the smart one. He knew the bridge would only be out for a couple of weeks and Abigail and Gregory could live without each other that long. I could see an argument for Ivan needing to be a better friend but that argument is outrageous. He is considered a bad friend because he knew how ridiculous this whole needing to get across the river was.

I think almost everybody in this story, not including Ivan, made bad choices. If they would have sat down and thought about the situation then it probably would not have turned out this way.